Goodbye, Godot

This poem was written in Mexico City on March 25, 2013, as a glad and grateful celebration of my dear new friend, Mohsen Emadi.

for Mohsen

1

this is a man who embraces snow
he has the juice of pomegranates on his thumbs
he and the snow are always disappearing

2

this is not a love poem
this has nothing to do with
words or bodies
or things that get put inside them

3

this has to do with sparrows
trembling on vines
vines that will still be there
in the dust
after the fight
after the battle
after the war

4

don’t get me wrong
(she says, knowing words can’t keep
even personal wolves
from unmarked doors)
don’t get me wrong
I’m not his mother,
not his lover
(is there time here for an asterisk,
meaning ‘alas’?)

*

I’m not even his friend
Though that’s a pebble thrown in the right pond
(pause here to hear a Bassho Splash!)

5

I have no culture
he has too much
I had no war
you get the picture
where he is male, eastern, dark, young
you get the idea
he is a part of what I forgot to remember
I am the shadow of a memory still to come

6

we are each to the other
the ghost of an imaginary friend
the breath within the wind
which is otherwise a lecture

7

I will not bore you with the usual
list of suspects
lineups of heavy-set thugs
accused of writing greeting cards
moon june love above
ah
but just one throw of chaff and
what might have been a poem is
ruined
stained with blood (Tehran)
or coffee (Seattle)

9

in Seattle
a waiter arrives labeled
(HI! MY NAME IS GODOT)
bearing a small glass tray
a mirror
a mirror as round as
a pregnant moon
and on that mirror he carries
a pomegranate even rounder

the mirror falls
(the waiter has been shot)
(insert title here)
waiter fruit and glass
break open
blood and seed and sweetness
mix with shards and he
separates the trinity with
delicate fingers
fruit from fragments

the fruit and the body
are ruined
but he puts the mirror back together
in the shape of a stained glass poem

10

these are just words from which
we both disappeared

you can find him
lying in long sweet grass
at the heart of a Persian desert

I am that improbable American grass
if I am anything at all
*

11

but no (meaning yes)
I still love you
so
I am still here
a vine in the dust
after the fight
after the battle
after the war-
and any trembling sparrow
is welcome to light on me

(no asterisk*)

8 thoughts on “Goodbye, Godot

  1. This is just beautiful, Lyn.
    I am so glad I found it.
    Now I’m going to read it again!

  2. Friend of Karen friend of mine

    I feel lucky this afternoon to have found this poem of yours
    In my electric mail box…my bird box for sparrows
    I left sparrows today at our animal shelter
    where amid the broken and healing bodies
    on three suddenly bursting mulberry trees
    sparrows are in a frenzy of enjoyable finding
    and beneath them in one patch a small
    donkey picks up remains
    and a dear little paralyzed pig, Stacy,
    chases the falling ripe fruit as fast as she can…
    The sparrows helped me to find my way into your poem
    and move around with the locations
    and dislocations
    It will take time for me
    to gather in all the fragments
    the daring fragments
    you fling at the world…
    I anticipate with pleasure
    the chance to try

  3. From: glange11@hotmail.com
    Date: Tue, 9 Apr 2013 13:03:21 -0700

    To Dura, Godot and Physics

    Godot is dead
    Only the famous tree
    Still standing
    Only the plain, homely sparrows
    Still tweeting

    Yes, the famous tree
    Still standing
    Stretching its dry arms
    Trying to reach infinity
    Winter

    Oh look there, on the tree
    Red pomegrante
    Round as “a pregnant moon”
    Hanging by a miracle

    Isaac is under the tree
    Waiting for the red ftuit
    To fall down

    Godot is coming back

  4. Thank you, dear new friend James and dear never-old friend Gala-
    Thank you for commenting, for writing beautiful poems and sending them to me.
    You brightened my days immeasurably with your creativity.
    Love, Lyn

    • As always I consider you as my best comrade,
      the best writer,the best pisno player,the One who knew Joseph Brodsky so well.
      Where is your essay about him? Did you mentioned it on your website?

      Comrade Gala

      • LOVE YOU, GALA- I’LL PUT UP THE BRODSKY MEMOIR VERY SOON- JUST FOR YOU!

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